COFFEE?
OR
ME?In a world where people are idealistic about relationships, how far will one go to have a momentary happiness in a complicated world?
We can be in a simple relationship but still find ways to make it complicated. Maybe it’s in our genes or maybe it was designed to be that way. Or maybe we are born masochist to our own pleasure of hurting ourselves.. for the thrill of love.
On one boring night talking on the phone with a friend and how she narrates the premiere opening of her love dilemma of the century, I wondered. Why do we always fall hard on unfamiliar territory, like a moth to a flame. It’s like its pulling you closer to an oblivious state of mind.
Unfortunate enough, I am the pile of boxes of her many fallen relationships. My hopes to lessen the boxes of ambiguities and vagueness, for my sake, is still hanging by a thread. As I listen intently for what could be another predictable story, I start to marvel on her words.
“Was it right to enter in a complicated relationship?”
I circled the question for the hundredth time in my head trying to muster the right lie to satisfy her hungry rationality. Where does complication really fall? Is it on the situation or the person? Or maybe it works hand in hand. There’s no right answer for it. Even a lie couldn’t convince that urge.
To what extent do we really bend for an almost perfect relationship? Yes, it’s hard to be in partnership with an erratic profession. As one takes flight, the other must adjust. Not to mention the excess baggage that hasn’t been checked-in.
Sacrifices are part of the emotional investment we are willing to capitalize on. Risk is part of the unfamiliar and uncertainty. Trust is the asset. But what happens when it becomes a liability? A liability that gets you closer to a loss than a profit.
Will it be the coffee, the tea… or you?
Are you strong enough to be in a dark, hot but temporary enticing aroma which eventually leads to a cold blunt tasting predicament that stains? Are you stable enough to be in a comfortable, refreshing, relaxing but eventually leads to dehydrate the emotions? Or would you rather have a connection with the inner soul in you first, that gives essence to security?
Complications are only complicated because we make them. You can make your own coffee and be content with it. You can make your own tea and make it sweeter. You can make your own you and erase all the complexity.
I have tried the coffee. I have taken the tea. Lesson learned, everything should start with me.
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